-But I’m home now, so… -So everything goes back to normal?

“Christmas at home” by Blaga Todorova

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Spending Christmas with my parents made my holiday most precious. I had lovely time despite the cold weather in Bulgaria, which I absolutely dislike. Even my camera refused to work under the pressure of the frost outside, so this time I came back with very few pictures, but loads of nice memories. One of them- I got the lucky coin from the New Year’s bread that mom made and I might, after all, find my happy place in a country with tall towers and whispers of beautiful promises.

The important is – I came back relaxed and ready for adventures. I’m back to Athens, I’m back to blogging. I have a lot to read around here and I apologize for the silence, but I will make it up to all of you that came here to visit and leave nice comments. Thank you everybody! May you all have a wonderful year ahead!

“-But I’m home now, so… -So everything goes back to normal?” –Jonny Vang

“New Year’s candles” by Blaga Todorova

This time I plan on NOT going back to normal … and here is where my first ever New Year’s Resolution comes. I usually function better when I’m not trapped in “must rules”. Most of the time I have a very clear idea about what I want and where I’d like to be, not as a definite statement, because life can be tricky at times. But now I’m making a commitment. In the very first days of January, I am officially looking for a new country, it will be my main task ’till I succeed. I think I had enough of Greece and the strikes, enough of people not being able to understand, not being able to see the real face of the situation here. Going back to Bulgaria is not an option, staying in Athens is unbearable, so new country it is … wherever the heart takes me … there.

“Light in the darkness – Athens at night” by Blaga Todorova

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On the list of things I’d like to do in 2011, apart from finding my dreamland/ or more like right-land/, I’d like to add and little something else … To make strangers smile as much as possible! What I realized recently, is that strangers helped me to get out of the darkness two years ago, few people that didn’t know me at all believed in me and gave me the courage to let go off the misery, so now I’d like to do the same for others in need. Let’s say, as of today, I am establishing my own, inside-the-heart-organization, called ”  Don’t let these eyes cry”. Strangers are the reason that I still dream, that I still believe in angels and strangers is what I’d like to support a bit more from now on.

“Today, give a stranger one of your smiles.  It might be the only sunshine he sees all day.” ~ H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

Keep dreaming, keep smiling! Love& Hugs …

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© 2011  Broken Sparkles
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Away

Away

One by one
the chains will fall down,
the metal rings of torture
will break and all objects,
creatures, feelings connecting me
to this place will follow with a loud crash.

They will slowly disappear,
will eventually dash to pieces,
to notice once I wake up,
there is nothing left to make me stay.
Yesterday was the smile of the sun,
today is the beach with stones,
tomorrow will be nothing,
just the dreams of new horizons.

People change and I have changed too.
Rain doesn’t look like a sad picture
of a crying cloud anymore,
but like drops feeding my skin with life.
The boundary between
the earth I step on right now
and the sky I look at every night
it doesn’t satisfy my thirst,
I wish I could be some place else.

Love is not beautiful anymore,
being his prisoner is not tempting,
now freedom is all that I pray for.
I long to drive on a long road,
with the volume of the radio to the end,
my hair flying with the wind,
my heartbeat chasing the wheels.

I imagine walking on streets
I haven’t been to yet,
I look to read stories
I haven’t heard about before,
I need to taste lips ready to be there
every time I miss sweetness,
I want to truly love, to be loved and
this time away… faraway from here.


Image by Nicola Aiken-Ripolin

 

© 2010  Broken Sparkles

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