Stubborn

 Stubborn

the morning disappears
in the sunny glitter
we drew with lips last summer
long gone, but not faraway
the memory of you breathes
the winds of the meadows
we painted with trembling fingers

i welcome the new day
with the taste of lonely coffee
squeezing blue, water lilies
indicating that I’ve lost you
in the whispers of a desert shore
and i throw in imaginary, icy lake
every fantasy leading to you

i repeat the smiles, again and again
i guard the mirrors of my mind
but my heart, doesn’t want to understand
my heart, doesn’t want to love again
my heart, only agrees to beat for
your heart and it will not let me survive
no, it will not let me survive alone

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Inspired by  “My hands” – Leona Lewis

Dedicated …

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“Paper heart” by naduss on DeviantArt

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© 2011  Broken Sparkles

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Happy V-day

“For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.”

~Judy Garland

“I love you” award by Jingle

 


It’s Valentine’s day, “heart’s day”, as someone I knew was calling it. I like to call it a V-day. It happens that for good or bad, this year I am not in love, at least not truly in love, not right now, not today.  My ex-boyfriend called last night at 12:05 a.m., to say Happy Valentine’s day, he said, he wanted to be the first to wish me about love and happiness.

What can I say? I didn’t expect it. Maybe the idea of me is still in his brain, maybe he still dreams about all our nights together, having conversations, giggling and in love. I sometimes remember these nights too, but in general trying to avoid going back to the past. I expressed my appreciation about the call, but made it very clear I have nothing to celebrate as love hasn’t been around me since we two followed separate ways and then the conversation ended up.

When I woke up in the morning and remembered the phone call, I realized how wrong I was. Of course I have a reason to celebrate! It might not be so obvious a reason, but I have and not only one, but million reasons. I can celebrate the existence of my heart, the courage and the sparkles of this tiny, invisible organ, hidden in my chest, which makes me feel so fully alive, which never leaves me alone or betrayed.

I can celebrate the love and the support of my family and friends, that I will always have, no matter what kind of day it is. I can celebrate the fact that even not in love today, I still believe in having a hope and I dream of a new love with someone who will know how to treasure and comfort me, who will appreciate all simple gifts of nature and my smile and my happiness will become a purpose of a life. I can today celebrate my faith in love and romance, which I honor every single day, not just on the 14th day of this month …because I know, love is what makes us go!

So dear all of you, in love or not, alone or with your other half, happy or heartbroken … honor love and its beauty and have faith, love is always around, not only today, you just need to let it in! Happy Valentine’s day!

Love& Hugs

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© 2011  Broken Sparkles

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People

people

they come
when the dust crawls
on street corners
when you need help
to inhale the ashes
left after demons fight
kindness offered
breaths undercover
making you a better man
a woman.
barely in charge, addicted
you accept them

they hold you
when tears betray you
to let you know
there’s this salty taste of life
no proof of sound to register
the beauty of arms around you
in and out, up and down
the value of a friendly hand
matters in each second
in moments when you realize
you can’t have
the whole pot of ice-cream alone

they go eventually
with a promise to return
but only in your deep sleep
leaving empty
the guest’s cup of coffee
grounded on a shelf with bitter herbs
they come and go
like trains in opposite directions
like seasons changing the shade of the day
leaving you constantly sitting
on a cold bench at faraway metro station

They come and always go

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“People come and go” by Jimisoflou on deviantart.com

 

© 2011  Broken Sparkles