Memories *3*

*All characters appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real persons is purely coincidental.*

… She was writing again and this time the words were different, this time she wanted to share happiness. They couldn’t stay apart. It was like a dream, like a fairytale, like a celebration, or at least Bella thought it was. Blind, deaf, not able to accept anything but the moments with him, with Charlie, her Charlie.

People were talking bad about him, even Dina and Helena once told her they saw him with another woman, but she couldn’t believe it was true. Bella trusted him. And when the pregnancy test Bella did came positive, she had another prove of his devotion. The excitement in his voice, how come he could have another woman? It was impossible! Charlie couldn’t wait the doctor to confirm the news, so Bella could go and talk to her parents and he could officially ask for her hand.

Three weeks later, Bella called her mom and said she is coming to see them. Mr. and Mrs. Rico Valor were delighted with the news, their baby girl had met someone nice and there was a grand-child on its way. Isabella was supposed to stay two days in Santa Pola, but she couldn’t wait to see Charlie again, so she decided to go back a day earlier and to surprise him. But she was the one to be surprised , entering the flat, seeing clothes all over the floor, definitely not hers.

The sound of the running water in the shower, the sighs of pleasure and the view of Charlie’s naked body, holding another naked body of a woman, touching her, kissing her with care. At first it was the shock that made her go down on the floor, trying to restrict the vision, trying to convince herself, that it was just a bad joke. And then the awakening, her six senses brutally awake, showing her in slow motion all signs about how much people were right, all signs that she ignored , because it was so damn good to feel like a princess. And at last – the rage that swallowed her, feeling she will murder, the scream: “Out! Both of you out!”, which got the attention of the sinful couple in the shower.

It was a blur, a delusion what followed next. The skinny blond woman running and leaving wet traces on the black marble. Charlie apologizing and Bella pushing him away, with hatred, with disgust, nasty feelings she never felt before. The vase and the picture frames thrown after him and that traitor her heart, hoping Charlie will disappear. And when finally alone with the door locked and Charlie banging on it, begging her to let him in and explain, the tears came, the bitter ocean of tears, followed by million “Why?” and blood running down on her legs.

Bella lost the baby and with the unborn baby gone, all her dreams faded at once. The pieces of glass in between water and roses on the floor, were the only witnesses to watch her soul evaporating into the sky, the only that heard the silent promise : ” There won’t be another heart to trust and let it dance a broken tango with my scars!”

Dina was out of town that night. She was expecting a call from Bella to hear how things went in Santa Pola after the news about the baby, but when she heard the hysterically crying Bella on the phone, not able to understand a word out in between the sobbing and the quick talk, she got really worried and sent Helena to see what is going on. Helena found her friend in a way no words could describe, covered with blood, the look in her eyes, broken, empty and the only thing she could do is take Bella to the hospital. Helena has never seen Bella in such a condition, she herself was ready to cry. She tried to understand what happened, why her flat was a mess, how she lost the baby, where Charlie was and how come she was not in Santa Pola, but no luck. Bella didn’t speak until the time to leave the hospital came. And all she said was that she doesn’t want to talk about it, how Barcelona is over for her and she is going back to Santa Pola for good.

She asked them if they could go to her flat and pack a bag for her, she didn’t want to go there and live the nightmare again. The flat she bought with so much love was now contaminated and dirty. Back in Santa Pola, Bella begged her parents to just accept her back, without questions. Her mother would hear her cry late at night for months. It was tearing her apart to not know how to help her little girl, but she respected her wish and never mentioned Charlie or the baby who obviously were no longer there. One day Bella asked if she can work in the family hotel. It was the day she decided it’s time to move on. It was nice meeting new people, talking with the guests, she even found her notebook and wrote few poems. They were all about one hopeful new future and one different world, where pure love rules within. Her mother was reading the poems secretly and she couldn’t thank God enough for bringing life back to her daughter.

Bella sent some of her work to few publishing houses she found online. Many people have said to her she has a talent, so why not try to do something about it. And not much later a publishing house in New York answered her, saying they loved her work. So tomorrow the early flight she had to catch was to New York. She was so excited, she couldn’t sleep.
The celebration for her 33d birthday with her parents, the dreams about the new beginning, the ideas of the new poems she will write, it all kept her awake. She was wondering why did she remember all this tonight?
What took her to the past? Maybe this was a way to say “good bye” to all bad memories and the pain that made her loose the way to happiness, maybe it was a way to welcome tomorrow- the new, beautiful and promising tomorrow!

to be continued …

“The awakening” by ivorytowers11 on


© 2011  Broken Sparkles


4 Responses to “Memories *3*”

  1. Jamie Dedes Says:

    So quintessentially you. Lovely, though poignant. Has the stamp of your lyricism, the same dream-like quality of your poems, the same loveable characters with whom we can all relate. I look forward to the next installment.
    Hugs! Lovely! I’ll be back or I’ll email you tonight. Have a wonderful day.

  2. liv2write2day Says:

    Beautifully written but so sad. It touches a raw nerve with anyone who has been deceived like that!

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